This past weekend I had the honor of spending time at the Ahava Center for Spiritual Living, in Lexington, Kentucky.  The Reverend Soni Cantrell-Smith was being Ordained and Installed at this beautiful new church that Rev. Soni was called to create with the folks of Lexington two years ago.  Rev. Soni was my partner in creating Namaste 12 years ago, and was with our community up until the time she honored her inner call to return to Kentucky.

 

I was reminded this weekend, how difficult it was for Rev. Soni to say “yes” to this inner nudge to move … inner sledge hammer she might say. But it would not be denied. And, I was reminded how hard it was for me to say goodbye to her as we had co-created for so long, and she is so much a part of the fabric of Namaste and of my life.  And, we both were reminded how RIGHT all of Life is.  How right it is for her to be where she is, in this incredible new place of healing, growth, enlivenment.  And how right it is where I am, and how right it is that Namaste is writing its next chapter.

 

Sometime during the weekend, Rev. Soni teased me about how when she finally made her decision to leave, I was mad at her for a week!  Now I don’t think a week is too bad, after 10 years together :).     We joked about it, but I sure remembered the feelings well.   It took a week to crack the façade of “you go and do what you are called to do, I’ll be ok”.   I was not OK at that moment, and truth be told, I was not mad .. I was scared.  I was scared about how I would move on without my partner in ministry that had been all I had known.  I was scared that I would have no one to lean on.  I was scared to make a change.  And, I was scared to tell the truth about my fear.

 

Have you ever been scared to tell the truth about your fear?  Have you ever been scared and masked it as anger?

 

The TRUTH is … life is uncertain and ever changing.  And the TRUTH is that we are always supported and guided into the next evolution of our Being.  The TRUTH is we are designed to ever change, and grow, and experience more of God living Itself through us.  Life will not allow us to stay put!  And, with every movement forward, there is loss.  Honoring the loss so that we can fully move forward and accept the richness of what Spirit has in store for us, continues to be my work in life.  How about you?

 

There is so much in this universe, and in our lives, that is “Unwritten”.  Sometimes, we have to move on, inorder to fulfill it.

 

You Are Precious, You are Awesome,

Rev. Kristin

 

P.S.  Look at some video of Rev. Soni’s Ordination and Sunday service!